If I have died, I want you to know what your friendship has meant to me. On that day we spoke, I'm afraid I had rather given into despair. It felt as though I had been crying out with all my might, and no one would hear me or come to my aid. I was silenced, helpless and hopeless, and I thought I might prefer to die than to continue on that way. And then there you were, with all of your clumsy courage, demanding the truth from me, grabbing onto it and refusing to let go. Truly listening to me, and extending your hand to me in understanding.
You see, you saved me. Because of you, I did not give up but decided to try to keep going. And tonight, too, I will not give up. I don't want to take someone's life and I have never wanted that, so I will refuse absolutely to try, but I also refuse to allow myself to be the reason someone else has to carry that awful burden and will be ruthless towards that end. Nonetheless, while I want this person caught, I also demand of you that you will show them every ounce of compassion that you once showed to me.
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week 5, saturday.
If I have died, I want you to know what your friendship has meant to me. On that day we spoke, I'm afraid I had rather given into despair. It felt as though I had been crying out with all my might, and no one would hear me or come to my aid. I was silenced, helpless and hopeless, and I thought I might prefer to die than to continue on that way. And then there you were, with all of your clumsy courage, demanding the truth from me, grabbing onto it and refusing to let go. Truly listening to me, and extending your hand to me in understanding.
You see, you saved me. Because of you, I did not give up but decided to try to keep going. And tonight, too, I will not give up. I don't want to take someone's life and I have never wanted that, so I will refuse absolutely to try, but I also refuse to allow myself to be the reason someone else has to carry that awful burden and will be ruthless towards that end. Nonetheless, while I want this person caught, I also demand of you that you will show them every ounce of compassion that you once showed to me.
I hope we will meet again.
Yours truly,
Susato Mikotoba